It's been awhile since I did my blog, maybe too long. I am struggling right now with my walk with God. I am not reading my bible and getting into God's word like I should. I listen to my Christian music, but sometimes that doesn't always help. I mean I listen to it and sometimes when I'm done, don't listen to it, or just get tired of listening to it, I think "Now what?" or "What's next?". There are sometimes, maybe most days, at least as of late, where it is difficult to even talk to God or if I really want to talk to Him. I don't know if or really what to call it. Demons, voices, traps, masquerade, facade, or just thinking about what people think about or will think about me. Am I really accepted in this world or am I just out there on an island by myself. I really don't know. I mean will people think I'm crazy, nuts, insane, wild, a little out there, or just way too far out there if I talk about God all the time, like I tend to do on facebook. I do get excited or just talk really loud at times and it is difficult for me to control it or don't know how to control it. I tend to do things without thinking them out. It is getting increasingly harder and harder to be a Christian in this world or just getting in God's world with so many temptations or just thinks trying to get or pull your attention away from God.